Tuesday, April 29, 2008


a memory, an experience
strong enough to bruise
and erode multiple hearts
sharper than a knife-edge
drawing bloody thoughts
yet one i would relive
over and over again,
till death ends it all!

don't you see? clearly
i am past the point of
no return where regrets
matter, then again not!
for i am captured, addicted
an obedient slave,
with no gate for escape-
without regrets, but waiting
for death to end it all!


In response to Sharon's "What do you not regret, though you should?" . This is again an
addict's perspective, or what I imagine to be an addict's perspective. no, I don't do drugs, but
I have encountered a few who do and it is saddening how low a person can sink once addicted.


keith hillman said...

What a strong piece. You so perfectly captured the hopelessness of the situation.

UL, I can't thank you enough for all the time you spent on my blog commenting. Mind you, if you hadn't suggested NaPoWriMo you would have had 30 less posts to plough through!

Thank you again

paisley said...

while it is true one can reach lows lower than they ever expected when using,, it is not at all absurd for those very same people to survive that,, and be stronger and wiser and more beautiful than ever before for having the opportunity to have done so...

UL said...

i applaud those who do, paisley and all my admiration goes to them...but it is so difficult to survive once hooked?

Marja said...

You captured that excellently. I have seen people with addiction as well. Young people completely under the power of drugs. You feel helpless when you see that.

TC said...

I think you totally hit the nail on the head and weren't off base at all. Wow.

qualcosa di bello said...

you have captured with perfection the very same thing i am watching play out before my eyes with someone i love & it is the most heartwrenching thing i know in my life.

anthonynorth said...

It's so easy to begin, so hard to stop - so hard, I think, to want to.

Bone said...

I agree with what others have said. You capture that feeling of giving in again and again.

I've always been fascinated with the topic of addiction. I can see how easy it would be to fall into that.